
Photo by Tina Hensel
Small
By
Bamboo Bill
Most of us have followed the wrong Gods home at some time or another. Reflection upon ones own mind can be paralyzing in as much as enlightening. Freedom becomes something definable in the material sense of the word but indefinable when one couples the “mind” into the question.
Having spent most of this life wondering around inspecting the nuts and bolts of my own existence I have had to draw upon humanity as a frame of reference, namely the American society. Spending a little time on bent knees in your own yard can be one hell of an adventure.
When ones ego grows rapidly and starts to displace the essence of God some pretty strange behavior can manifest. The I begins to be Self Righteous and seeks to dominate the material world around it. This fits nicely into the capitalistic engine that we all seem to fuel. The word BIG becomes the operative word. It has an entire family of words, such as Biggest, best, fastest, swiftest and so on.
What we don’t realize is that we, along with most of our neighbors tend to glorify all the Bigness of our life. Yet as a society we are seemingly void of happiness. The treadmill of having more, consuming more than another eats at our very souls like a slow cancer.
This treadmill provides for bigger government which cuts us deeper so the taxes can be extracted. When you finally see the truth, you either jump into the fire and die happy with all those material possessions or you run to high ground. Once you reach high ground your country, fellow man and big government define you as a misfit.
I had four karate studios that ran full time and I was known as one of the few karate instructors who turned their love for the martial arts into a vocation not just a hobby. As time went along, my ego grew and grew , daily I struggled magnificently to be caption Kirk of the Star Ship Enterprise, metaphorically speaking. My body worked well and my mind seemed clear as a mountain stream in mid August. All was well in my BIG life.
Then one day I left it all for reasons that are only clear to me now years later. My ego had gotten to Big, to heavy and therefore I knew I must cast off the material world that I had attached myself to. I spent a few years working on bamboo rods living frugally sometimes on the edge of invisibility. There was a sense of loneliness but at the same time a quite calm entered my life. I delt with the loneliness because I knew it was self imposed. One is born into this life alone and certainly dies alone.
Years after my journey, I met an old time friend and past student. In conversation he said, “Bill you have a little life”. Those words have never left me. This friend of mine is a warrior and has fought many battles that successful self employed people always do. I respect him for the man that he is for the total sacrifice for his family. His life has been hell the past few years and I won’t get into it. He has the Big life that he fights to maintain everyday and I have a Little Life that is relatively simply to maintain. But let me say now, the Small life is not easy, the words simple and easy somehow don’t always equate in our throw away society that is laced with instant gratification.
Now I seek not the big fish, not the holly waters, the big money, the big title, the big toys, the newest gadget or the big house. I seek the small in almost everything I do. I’m happier on this journey of being a pilgrim traveling along the road of life that society would define as a minimalist. It is kind of like realizing that a Zen Koan has no true meaning other than it is a tool to get the Zen student to recognize the foolishness of involving the mind in activities that are meaningless. For some of us once we figured this out we left the temple.
When I was thirty my body was fast, strong with the libido running high and my teeth were all there and white. Time went at a slower pace. Today at 55 my teeth are leaving me at an increasing faster rate and time is traveling faster also. Interesting comparison isn’t it. Life is coming to an end like a stream meandering down through a valley always moving always descending. A blink of the eye and I will begin another journey.
The Small is found everywhere: the red wing Black Bird with its song at dusk, my dogs excitement for the wild nature around her as we walk along a stream, the cry of a mountain lion right before dawn, a trout’s wink before he takes my fly, a crescent moon that reminds me just to smile, a Golden Eagle in flight, the sound of silence embedded in the deep woods, that feel of a plan in my hands, a gentle poem that I wrote so many years ago when read it touches my very own soul as if I read it for the very first time. The small is found in the void of the big and the finger of God is there.
The September Gods Smiled Down Upon Me
By
Bamboo Bill
I was into a good fish, a rainbow trout that had weight. Shadow and I had just entered Zen Moments pool and right before I had lowered my rucksack to the ground and telling Shadow to sit down, I saw a trout take an insect close to the surface of the cold mountain stream. He was off the main current feeding in the slick slow water created by a large boulder upstream. I stripped off line slowly from my Hardy reel tuning my ear to its lovely clicks as the line rolled off the spool. Then I cast a couple times down stream from the fish, letting the stream pull the right amount of line out. With two casts, one false and the second one, directly up stream from the rising trout…I watched my line come back down the stream slowly to me. Then, I saw the line stop and I raised the tip of the little bamboo rod and instantly felt the trout fast to my line. I had taken the camera out of the rucksack and had turned it on just encase I hooked into this fish. I laid the ruck sac open thus readying it for the trout I hoped to place upon it for the glorious piscine picture.
Shadow sat quietly and watched the passion play. The give and take of the fisherman and the trout. The trout ran into the main current and he had power, the fisherman let him have line and then managed to turn his head of the trout. The trout ran back up stream which took his power from him. I guided him toward the slow water and with another fierce run he was able to break out into the freedom of the fast water. My Hardy reel screamed the way a lover may scream in the mist of orgasm. I talked aloud to the fish and my dog Shadow gave me a glimpsing eye acknowledging the great fight that lay before her.
Once again I was able to turn the fish and he came up stream . He had expended great energy by now but still had fight left in him. I was able to get him into the slow water below the boulder that he and I had first met. I brought him to a the sandy beach I was standing on and knelled before him, struggling to pick him up. Each time my fingers touched him he would flex his strong flank muscles and free himself from my grasp. Then in one moment time stood still and I was able to grasp him and lay him on the rucksack next to my bamboo rod. I aimed the camera, took the picture and froze the moment in time forever. Gently I lifted this great September rainbow trout and placed him in the stream and he slowly swam off into the dark water.
Shadow led me out of the tall grass onto the trail, her head high in the air and nose to the wind. My head was high in the wind and with a smile on my face I found I was humming a happy tune. A tune that I could not place its name but none the less I continued to hum the tune over and over again. The two of us were happy.
During the hour walk home from the trout stream I thought about happiness. This is what I came up with. Happiness must come from inside of ones self. It cannot be achieved though the external world. Thinking that having something, a degree from Harvard, more money, another rod or another car will not make one happy. If one thinks the honor that friends bestow on them will make them happy it will not. All of the above will only excite a degree of happiness for minutes or maybe a few hours at best. Happiness must come from inside. I decided that gratitude was important. Realizing what wonderful blessings that one has everyday is important. Helping fellow man with good works creates a positive karma and a feeling of happiness.
Understanding what “Enough” means, surely is a great step in the right direction to understanding happiness. Understanding that the human condition is composed of: negative forces that impact us day in and day out, that there is pain and disappointment along with death and dieing. Even with all of these components in our lives, we can strive to be happy people. For happy people are lonely at times, they get sick, they feel the pain of life and humanity will disappoint them occasionally.
As I walked home I saw the beautiful natural world around me. I felt the September sun warm up my face and had another memory that would serve as a hedge against those rough times that always lay ahead of a Happy fisherman.
Photo by Tina Huffman
Brook Trout and Aspens of September
By
Bamboo Bill
The fall equinox is only a few days away. But I have noticed that the lush green growth around the North Fork is fading away leaving the longer grain grasses moving into the longer wave lengths of the light spectrum weeks ago. Orin is back in the sky sitting there over the mountains south of my house. The North Fork takes on the shape of a really nice trout stream this time of year as all the Rocky mountain trout streams do. . Rocks start appearing in the middle of the stream now that the water level has dropped. I imagine them as monoliths left here by some alien space travelers that landed here thousands of years ago. I suppose fly fishermen now and then, let their imagination run wild. It’s some of these natural changes that make me realize that the earth is tilting away from the sun ever so slowly. The shadows are getting longer and the solar panel that I use to power up some intriguing electronic experiments needs to be readjusted and thus tilted more toward the horizon. I have two barometers that I glance at every morning. I’ll keep a steady eye on them from here on out. I have gotten pretty good at estimating when a good size snow storm will move into the area just by consulting the little device that has been around for many years now. Now that I think about it…I started tapping a barometer when I was just a kid and did it every morning.
It is a time where winter could blow up any time. I have two cords of wood ordered that should arrive any day now and I’ll rest a bit easier when it finally comes. Oddly enough most of my wood gets delivered right before a snow storm and I have to be stacking it at a rate that seems hurried. At my age…I can still move fast but prefer the more deliberate rhythms of movement. I guess a fisherman who is into bamboo rods would naturally move a little slower.
The Aspens are beginning to change in the high country and I start thinking about Brook Trout. There is something poetic about driving up on a high mountain pass during the last two weekends of September and looking at the Aspens which have turned into rich yellow and amber colors. I always carry a small cane fly rod with me and fish one of the small creeks in hopes that I catch a few Brookies. They are in their full colors also. I feel better knowing that they are there. These trout are small and fit nicely in the palm of your hand. Most of the people up on the pass could care less about catching them…they are too small. But I fish for them out of personal tradition. They rest against my mind the way the barometer does this time of year where change is possibly right around the next bend. Their beautiful colors with the red and blue spots stand out. In my mind they are happy fish. I hold one of these trout in my hand and then gaze out into the vast space and see the Golden Aspens shimmering and I know that I have been granted another moment in my life that I will savor throughout the winter months that surely lay ahead. Another hedge to fall back onto when I feel the darkness of winter surround me.

Paradise Or Was It Just Imagination
By
Where I live there are hundreds of miles of trout streams within an hours drive of my house. The last trip to Yellowstone was a few years ago, maybe five years ago. In fact I just wondered over to the rod room and looked at the date written on the shaft of a bamboo rod I had made that year. Sure enough it was the year 2002. Fly fisherman have a strange method of dating or ear notching special events in their lives I suppose. It was a good trip and trout were caught. As usual, I spent some time up on a creek in its second meadow and if my memory serves me correctly caught Cutts on a size 16 yellow soft hackle that had a rabbit fur dam against the partridge hackle. On the trip back, I stopped over at a camp ground in Wyoming and fished the little creek near by and still to this day remember clearly the 12 inch rainbow trout that leaped and leaped and down stream he traveled all the while my hardy reel was screaming and I was laughing out loud like some drunken sailor on leave.
After arriving back in the Denver area I said to my wife and fishing partner, “I think we will spend the next few years just fishing Colorado. Gas prices hadn’t gone sky high at that point in time so that was not the reason for my decison. But it is a long drive in a old truck and the wind across Wyoming going to Yellowstone was head on, so I drove below the speed limit. The only good thing is I did not get a seeding ticket. State troopers like to stop “Greenies” (as the locals refer to Colorado passers though).
Life has always had a way of working out for me and so I now live in a quant little house that was initially built in 1865 that is within two stone throws of the North Fork of the South Platte. There is a small canyon that is just minutes form my house, 4-6minutes if I drive and 30 minutes if I walk there.
I admit I down play the hatches and the trout that reside on this part of the North Fork, partly because I don’t want to attract fellow fly fisherman. But there are times that, I have hooked into a trout 16inches and up. The water is fast and on my North Fork Special bamboo rod fly a 16 inch trout will give you a run for your money. So, I often drive up to the canyon and fish it in the evenings. It is close and with gas prices so high, I feel like I'm doing my part in keeping gas prices down. It is more of a feeling than a hard science reality I’m afraid.
Last night I caught a small rainbow that was 7-8 inches and it appeared to be a healthy young trout. Later on that night, once the sun had fallen below the western ridge of mountains I decided to fish a #16 pheasant tail soft hackle also known as a Flymph. There were a number of insects buzzing around the surface water, from small midges to #14 Caddis and large mayflies still dropping their eggs in the stream. I could make out a trout rising to the insects just off the main current tongue. It was a loner and often down in this section only big trout control the best feeding spots. I cast my Flymph across into the fast water and let it drift across the rising trout and bam!!!! What a strike. He took the line and we had one hell of a fight.
It took me a good while to land and releases him. I would guess he was a good solid 16 inches. I did not take my Streamwalker net along and that was a mistake because I had play him longer than if I could of guided him into the net. He was so big in the shoulders I could not steady him with only one hand. He would flex his body and get away from me and he did that on two occasions. Finally on the third time that I got him in, I was able to quickly release him. He was still strong and quickly swam away. It is a wonderful feeling to release such a powerful fish back into his world of freedom.
I did not fish any longer after I released him for my spiritual creel was over flowing. I have caught many fish in my life time and lost my share of demons which still reside in that compartment that all fisherman have in their minds. Sometimes, I think it is the ones that get away that we think about so fondly. This rings true in other areas of life as well.
As I walked back up the canyon to the jeep, I got the feeling I was being watched and so four or five times I stopped and looked back. Mountain lions are known to follow people, not so much to eat them but because they are curious by their nature. This feeling sweeps across you and you wonder if it is just your imagination or is it some Para normal feeling that mankind has removed himself from as the result of his technical evolution. None the less, the way I look at it is, it is better to have and active imagination and look back now and then and possibly stumble across a cougar following you then to be gobbled up because you just were to sophisticated to consider physic possibilities.
Once I had a spiritual teacher tell me that at any point in time there exist infinite paradises. As I pulled my hip wadders off and felt the cool night mountain air I thought about the paradise I had just slipped in and out of. It was soooo sweet.

In Search Of Starlight Creek
A work of Fiction – Another Rick Jason story
By
Bamboo Bill
It had been a hot August night and Rick sat outside with one of his best friends and old time fishing companion. This took place in a small dieing town in Eastern Colorado and they talked a long while. Rick had made his friend a Bamboo Rod and had spent the better part of a month out at his friends place making the rod. The rod was done and it was time for Rick to travel on. With 500 bucks to his name, thanks to a friend back east who wired him the money Rick was to set out for the East Coast the very next morning.
So the next morning Rick set out with his little popup camper and what rod making tools he owned and some bamboo in search of a new life that would also have Smoky Mountain trout laced in. The West had been kind to Rick but like most people he had taken his my share of punches and felt that a change in geography would be good. You could say he was an Angler at lose ends. In a small envelope on his dash was 100 bucks that his friend had slipped into the truck the night before. As he drove away a tear came to his eye and then a smile wiped across his face.
He was lonely in a way he could not pin down and had been that way most of my life. There was one guy who seemed to touch his heart and soul and that was a writer who wrote a few books that had fly fishing in them. All the loved ones in his life had moved on and he felt alone especially after old man Wong had died. This writer spoke to these issues in a way that made him realize there were others like him. Only his books helped with the pain of life. He and Rick suffered the same malady. They were both addicted to fast mountain streams, mountains and trout. The both loved bamboo fly rods.
So Rick drove out of eastern Colorado and dropped down into Oklahoma and from there he wondered into North Western Arkansas and felt the immediate press of the Boston Mountains. He was in no hurry to make it back East, in fact he was attempting to discover the mystical creek that Harry had written about; its name was Starlight Creek. Perhaps if he found Starlight Creek his pain would be would ease a bit. He wanted to get as close to Harry as he could. He wanted to fish the mystical creek. Maybe his ghost might pay him a visit…anything was possible. Though none of those possibilities seemed likely but there was always hope.
He pulled into Harrison and stopped by a little café for a cup of coffee. He started asking a few questions about Harry and the lady who brought him coffee over to his table came back when she had time and sat down at the table. She brought two pieces of lemon pie over, one for her and one for Rick. She said, “Ain’t nothing like good old fashioned Limon pie for a traveling pilgrim”. She had been to Colorado when she was younger so naturally she wanted to talk about Colorado. She said, “So you want to know about that writer, Middleton and Rick said, “yep I kind of do, you know anything about him?” She said she had a pretty young pretty that was his distant cousin that was a waitress down at a bed and breakfast not to far from the café’. After they had small talk that centered on the little town of Harrison and when they finished their pie she walked behind the counter and called the girl. She came back and said her girl friend would meet Rick at the such and such bar at 10pm that night. The waitress asked Rick if he wanted to pull his truck up in her yard for the night. Rick said, “Sure” and she said, “we will be having spaghetti and Rick was invited for supper. Her husband would love to see one of my fishing poles”.
Rick wondered around town and asked some questions. No one seemed to know who he was asking about and none of them had read any of his books. Around 6pm he wondered into a bar for a beer and had an interesting chat with a real old timer. He was about 80 years old as far as Rick estimated. Seems the old man had read the book. He said that Rick needed to drive down into Marble Falls and poke around down there. He had said he personally new the developer of the theme park down in Marble Falls area back in those days. The old man mentioned his name and said he actually spends his summers in Colorado these days. Had Rick heard of him? Rick said “no”. The old man mentioned in a stoic tone that people don’t want to remember Dog Patch because too many people lost their shirts on that deal. He said you might find the creek and drew a little map that showed some little ponds near the creek, on the property that the theme park had existed on years ago. Rick bought him another round of drinks said thanks to the old man and headed back to the waitress’s house and had dinner with them. Then after a delightful dinner he headed over to the bar to meet the girl who was the cousin of the dead writer.
She was red headed and would be wearing a blue gean skirt with a red blouse. Rick walked through the door and wondered over to the bar and asked the bar tender if she was around. He got a big smile on his face and point over in the back corner of the bar. She was sitting at a table all by herself and she waved and Rick walked over. She stood up and shook his hand. Her hand was warm to the touch and she had a confident grip. She had green eyes and was a good looking lady maybe about 30 he would guess. She was too young for him or was she? She was drinking a scotch so he bought her another and ordered a beer for himself. The story she told was interesting. Seems, she had been at a few family get togethers and Harry had been there. She said he was a quite guy and nobody talked much about his book. “The Earth Was Enough” wasn’t that the title. She said she had it in her purse. She pulled it out and handed it to me. Harry had signed the book for her. Rick thumbed through it hoping to see another clue. She said that Harry’s aunt was at the family get togethers. The aunt mentioned that Harry had given one of his books to his grand father. He had hand written a note that said something like, “Grand dad you would have liked these guys”…That was one of the first major clues Rick had to go on. She said, “There was an older guy, some guide from down near the White river who came up to Harrison with his wife and stayed at the bed and breakfast. She said he had been a guide for Harry and had asked some questions too. Seemed he wanted one of Harry’s books sense he had guided Harry a few times. She rode down to Marble Falls and snipped around. She said people just did not know much so she ended her search. Not being a fisherman she said her interest was possibly to light. She was impressed that I would travel so far. They spent the rest of the evening dancing and they rode down to marble falls the next morning. They ended up sneaking into the old dilapidated Dog Patch theme park and even caught a few trout in a pond there. The creek that ran through the valley was probably the mystical creek. Rick located a spot that was cold enough for trout but not to impressive. They drove back to Harrison and she left Rick a hand written note with instructions not to read it until he was down on the Buffalo River where he had planed to go next. She gave him a big hug and kisses that left Rick a bit dizzy. Her last comments were, “sometimes the truth doesn’t set you free if you won’t make an effort to let it... Perhaps Starlight Creek exist in many places. Therefore it might just be a place that you hold close to your heart even if you never actually go there”
Rick looked in his side mirror and saw an old Chevy pickup following him as he drove out of Harrison. He had seen the same pickup off in the distance when he and the girl were snooping around Dog Patch down at Marble Falls.
When he arrived at the Buffalo River he pulled off the rode and sipped on a cold Root Beer and reached for the envelope containing the note the girl had left for him. It said:
Dear Rick,
I hope this information helps you in your search. I only hope it doesn’t ruin your love for the stories in the book The Earth Is Enough. As far as I know what I’m going to tell you is true. Harry’s grandfathers name was Travis Jones. He was not hunting or fishing type of person and he never owned a ranch. In fact he Harry had spent some summers with him. Travis was a highly religious man and I for one wonder if Harry was a bit sorry that his grand father who he loved so much did not fish or hunt etc. and probably felt a bit of pressure applied to him regarding religion. I could be wrong about this. I think that’s why the grandfather in the story basically saw life without a Personal God and therefore the Earth was enough. Also, Travis Jones out lived Harry. Remember in the book, in the last chapter Harry travels back to see the three old men’s grave. Will, Travis Jones would have been alive if that part of the story happened. Oh yes, I once asked Harry’s father if he had ever read the book The Earth Is Enough and he said “no he hadn’t”. I thought this was strange but actually I don’t think Harry had a good relationship with his father so maybe his father was ashamed of him because he did not enter the military. Who knows? If I find out more I’ll let you know. Take care my pilgrim, I already miss you.
Chapter II
Rick camped at a camp site along the Buffalo River. The next morning he hiked along the river and caught a few small sun fish. They came nicely to his spiders. The small mouth was not there. He was amazed at the beauty of the Bluffs that hung over the river. He wished he had his canoe with him. That day was an interested one and Rick had even seen a small heard of Elk and some wild pigs...
That night he had a small camp fire out side his camper. A couple from Texas came over to join him. They shared stories of Colorado trout fishing and everyone had a great time. The guy’s wife had a smile that reminded him of an old girl friend back in California. Around mid night the couple wondered back to their camp site. Rick sat there with his dog by his side poking at the coals that were still red hot.
The next to morning Rick headed up toward the White River. He had heard that the Harry’s guide was somewhere around there. Maybe just maybe Rick might run into him. If not that was ok he wanted to fish the famous White River down below Bull Shoals. As luck would have it Rick stayed and at a fish camp and the owners let him camp for free. They had great respect for his bamboo rod making skills. So he stayed two nights.
The fishing on the White River was superb in everyway a fly fisherman could ask for. Rick was able to catch a dozen Brown trout 16 inches and up over the two days. He especially enjoyed the fog that rose from the river in the morning. He had mentioned that to the owners of the camp that he was looking for a specific guide and they thought they knew who he was talking about. They said,” that would be Jack and they would call the other fish camp up river from them and ask if he had guided Harry”.
Sure enough Jack was the guide. Jack said he would meet with Rick at a local pub. Rick set off for the pub and happened to look in his side mirror and low and behold that old Chevy pickup was following him. He turned into the Pubs parking lot and noticed the truck drove on by real slow like. Rick could not get a good view of the driver. Now Rick was suspicious and knew he was being followed by someone in the truck. The whole adventure regarding Starlight Creek was beginning to look like something very interesting was going to happen. The girl up in Harrison had left her phone number and outside the bar was a phone both so he gave here a call. They had some small talk that lasted a couple of minutes and they said their goodbyes. He told her he would call her again after he spent some time up Deep Creek.
Rick walked into the bar and quickly noticed Jack the guide. He was wearing a hat with flees all around the hat band. They had a few beers and a couple of shots. When the whiskey hit, Jack told Rick that his wife had called the family when they found out Harry had died. The person that answered the phone said that everything Harry wrote was a lie and that they all hated fly fishing…then hung the phone up. Jack said, in his mind he did not think that Harry died the way everyone said. Rick asked, how do you think he died? Jack in a stoic tone of voice said, Rick leave it alone just leave it alone. Rick then asked him if he thought he knew where Starlight Creek was. Jack said, it’s my guess that it was Mill Creek and that Harry actually had made up the mystical Starlight Creek that it might be a composite of many creeks that he had had fished. Jack then got up and shook Rick’s hand. Then he reached in his pocket and pulled out a small bone handled bodkin and gave it to Rick as a gift. Rick looked at the small tying tool and said, “Thanks in fact thanks for everything. Jack left out the front door. Rick sat back down and ordered another beer and spent the next half hour listening to the country band that was just starting to play music. He thought to himself, wow this trip is really getting interesting. He looked at the beautiful bone handle bodkin before he put it into his shirt pocket. Rick got up and walked outside the bar and looked sky ward and saw some stars making it through.
The next morning he left the fish camp and headed for the Smoky Mountains. There was no sign of the pickup and he was relieved. He pulled up to the Deep Creek camp ground and got his outback camp permit. The old lady in the booth who gave him the outback pass said to him, you staying up there for 5 days all by your self. Rick said yep if all goes well. She said make sure you hang your food up high the bears have been coming out a lot. He asked her if she had heard of Harry Middleton. She said well yes, he was that writer who wrote such a nice book about the Great Smoky Mountain National Park. She said once she even gave him one of his outback passes. Other than that she did not know anything about him. He seemed like a quite kind of guy.
The first part of the hike was fairly easy but then Rick reached a point on the trail that one had to pull himself up a rope about five feet. Shadow wondered around and found another route, she was good at that. When Rick finally got up the rope he noticed it was tied with a slip knot so he retied it with a safer knot. He realized how lucky he was that the knot hadn’t pulled lose. He thought to himself, “You would think a backpacker or Park ranger would know how to tie a good knot”. .he shook his head and mumbled dumb f…..errs under his breath. Cussing was really one of his bad habits. One that was hard to break. He was no angel.
The second night on Deep creek took him up to about 7 miles in. He had caught some nice brown trout and had released them all. He was fishing the Lost Creek bamboo rod. It was a little 6’6” 4wt and performed perfect on the small stream. Rick was surprised about how much moss and liken existed on the rocks…it was all over the rocks and in so many beautiful colors. There was nothing like it in Colorado.
The evening came fast and Rick pulled his food up high on the cables that were provided at the primitive camp sites. He started a camp fire and heated some dehydrated food. The sound of the insects was unbelievable. The coffee pot was beginning to percolate when a voice called from the shadows. “You mind if I join you for a cup of coffee, I’m camped over there about 100 feet. If you don’t want any company I just leave you alone”. Rick stood up and said “come on in I have another cup for ya”. The older gentleman held his own cup in his hand. They shook hands.
The old man was full blooded Cherokee Indian. He fished bamboo as well and he had a look in his eye like he had some secret he was hiding and yearning to tell Rick. Rick decided to just let the conversation roll along and see where all this was leading. After a second cup of coffee the old man who by the way was in great physical condition said, “I was on your trial way back in Harrison”. One of the locals told me about you, that you had been asking lots of people questions about Harry and Starlight creek. So I thought I might just see what you were up to. I aint got nothing but time on my hands. You see I knew Harry and in fact fished with him now and then. I guess we all enjoyed his books. On the Spine of Time had some truth written into it…a few of the Characters were real people. The girl with the dog was real and the dude from New York was a real person. I fished with the both of them. The money dude was not from New York, he was from the South and had the accent to go with it. Rick now, realized that maybe some of the lose ends might just come together.
The old Indian asked Rick what he knew about Harry and Starlight Creek. Rick told him everything straight up front, thinking if he was in error the old man might take it upon himself to make the corrections. Then again…. perhaps not. Rick had nothing to lose. For all he knew he was on one hell of a Goose chase.
The old Indian went back to his camp and then reappeared with a nice bottle of moonshine. It was really smooth and he confessed that it was of his own making. The old man asked Rick if he could see his bamboo rod and Rick handed him the tube. The Indian slowly twisted the brass cap off and eased the rod out of the tube. His eyes were twinkling as he joined the tip and butt section together. He wiggled it and said, “nice rod pilgrim, the perfect rod for Deep Creek. Harry would of liked this rod. Feels like there are fish in it. Then he said the character named Wonder was real and he fished a three piece bamboo rod that was miss matched. The rod was composed of three sections from different rods. The old man took a long draw off the bottle and said, “that old rod always caught fish”. Harry had the rod in his possession and was gona have some rod maker in the North East revarnish and wrap it with new guides. But I don’t think it ever got revarnished. Harry had a few dreams that just never came true. He sighed and said, “I guess we all do for that matter”.
Rick said, “ what do you know about his personal life?” The old man said, “ not much, Harry was very secretive. Even his close friends were kept somewhat in the dark, if you get my drift. I do know that he had some rough times in his final years. He could not afford the meds he needed for his depression. I heard from the grapevine he had a friend that let him live in a cabin toward the end of his life. His family life was not good. He needed money badly so he sold all his fly rods and if my memory serves me correctly some lawyer got the rods for a steal. His family might have some of his bamboo rods. Back in those days neither of his boys were interested in Fly Fishing. He had a favorite creek that he liked to fish with a lady friend of his. I think they were just good friends not lovers. But the creek they fished together might have been Starlight Creek in Harrys heart. It might not have been a trout stream but then again it might have been. I don’t think Harry ever felt enough love or had enough time on the creeks. There are some people who claim they see his Ghost up on Hazzel creek. He said, “it might be so…but he could not say for sure”. The old man looked at Rick and said, “ perhaps it is all made up and even what I told you tonight is pure smoke and little else”. You know disinfomation can lead a guy away from the truth. Some say the government did the same thing with good honest folks that saw a UFO. He chuckled.
The moonshine might have been the cause of the aura that seemed to surround the old Indians head. But there was a glow that Rick could not help but see. The old Indian stood up and shook Ricks hand and said, “enjoy Deep Creek and keep care”. Then he walked off into the darkness.
The next morning Rick was up early and had made coffee. He walked in the direction of where the old man said he was camping. Only there was no one camping there and the ground did not look like anyone had camped there. No foot prints, no nothing. Rick felt a sense of bewilderment and walked back to his camp fire and hot coffee.
Rick fished and hiked up deep Creek the next two days and made it up to Clingmans Dome. He stuck out his thumb and a lady in a Voltswagon bus stopped and picked Rick and his dog up. She was headed back down the mountain in to Bryson and was more than glad enough to drop Rick off at the trail head to Deep Creek where Rick’s truck was parked. When they pulled to a stop at the trail head she said in a soft tone, “she had a dog once and his name was just plan “dog”. He had died about ten years ago and she missed that dog. They had hiked all over the Smoky Mountains together.
Rick walked around to the driver’s side. He shook her hand and thanked her for the ride. The old women in the volunteer shack saw Rick and hollowed for him to come over. She asked, him if he saw any bears while he was up there on Deep Creek. Rick said “no”. but the creek was beautiful beyond words and the solitude was great. She just smiled and said “come back again”. Rick walked over to his truck, Shadow jumped into the cab and they drove off down the road. He would have years to ponder all the information that he had stumbled into. But one thing was for sure, there is a Starlight Creek waiting for every fisherman and it might be just around the next bend. Such is life…it comes and goes …it comes and goes. END

Photo by John Trout
Hazel Creek and Old Scrapbooks
By
Bamboo Bill
Do you know what it feels like to witness nature in all its beauty and realize that if you screamed at the top of your lungs “no one would hear your scream”? Fly fishing, hoping from one rock to another with my little bamboo rod in my hand, feeling the wonder of immediate life, the press of the quietude and the yearning to have fellowship with another who feels the same has haunted me most of my life.
So often my true friends are always in other states and sometimes they don’t even fish. None the less they are people that share a love and passion for a camp fire and the voice of the coyote off in the distance. So it is, our true family is not what our genes are linked to but what our soul and heart are attached to.
It makes no difference that I meet someone on a trail winding its way into some mountain landscape or even here on the internet it makes no difference at all. Only the linkage, the contact, the brief telephone call, the intense e mail describing a wonderful moment out on a mountain stream, the small gifts that float into my U.S.P.S. mailbox make me realize how special people are. I know I’m not alone only physically distant from others who love the Earth as much as I.
The other Day two scrapbooks came in the mail to me. These scrapbooks are old and contain a dead mans passion for fly fishing. Out of the blue a special kind of man sends them to me with a small note saying” Hope you enjoy these Bill. I got them back around 1973 or 74 When Mr. Wichmann died. He was a character!!! Loved fly fishing as much as you and he was a loner much like you, that is why I want you to have them.”
Another gift dropped at my feet……..what comes around I must pass around I think to myself. What others see in me, I can not.
When I decide to wonder though them I will first quite my mind and in doing so hope to let his lingering spirit joins me.
Just yesterday John Trout sends me pictures of Hazel Creek. John back packs in the Smoky Mountains a couple of times a year. We have common ground. Harry Middleton is our favorite writer. John keeps the book beside his bed. As good as place as any. Middleton loved to fly fish Hazel Creek and so does John.
When I was up on Deep Creek for four days back in 1999 I carried Harry’s book “On the Spine of Time” with me. Those four days I read the book again, at night fall in my tent lit by candle light.
So, even with the gas prices sky high and my fishing reduced to my local streams that lay close to me and with no hopes of going far a field, my love for fly fishing people simply continues to expand.
This one is for John and Bob

Photo by Tina Huffman
To Kill or Not to Kill
By
Bamboo Bill
My mother sat me down one day and told me in no uncertain terms, “You are not poor” she said, “You will always have a roof over your head, clothes to wear and food to eat”. Somehow at 8 years of age it kind of made sense. But I still did not have a Red Rider BB gun. Our priorities change as we get older.
There was a time in my life that I was living strictly off the frog green dollars poring in from some franchises I owned and making a bamboo rod now and then. All was fine in paradise. Living the single life with some romance along the way and a lot of camping and fishing to be had seemed Idyllic. Then franchise owners realized that they could stop paying me and I could not afford to hire a lawyer to force them too. The kind of thing that can happen when you place fishing at the top of your list of things to do. So now and then I found myself out on the limb living day by day hoping for the best. I admit in a left handed kind of way it seemed normal.
I was up in the high country camping out waiting for a customer to show up and pay me the final down payment on a rod. Like a fool I had actually sent the rod to him believing he would pay me the final installment and he said meeting him at one of our favorite high country lakes would be the perfect place for him to deliver me the green backs. It seemed like a good idea. Getting paid and fly fishing up in the high country was just alright by me. The type of poetry that a fisherman finds inviting.
I had left Denver with a tank of gas in my truck and $20 in my pocket and no other funds. I drove the six hours to the lake and had to buy more gas leaving me ten bucks to my name. I had already traded some radio gear to a guy I was renting a room from down in Denver. One of the three franchisees had recently closed up in the middle of the night. I never saw that last payment. Such is life…after all I had two others that were solvent, so I wasn’t all that worried. But I should have been.
I had pretty much eaten all my rations that I kept in my camper the past couple of weeks and was down to half a loaf of bread and part of a jar of peanut butter and one can of Dinty More stew.
I arrived at the lake on time with a couple of hours left before night fall so I headed out to the lake for the evening rise. I caught a fair number of cutthroats and released them all. I kept listening for the guy I was suppose to meet…he drove and old GMC four wheel drive pickup that had a bad muffler that you could hear a half a mile off.
The sun dipped below the ridgeline with the typical summer night chill in the air so I headed back to the camper and made a pot of coffee. That night I ate the entire can of dint more stew. The next morning I ate a peanut butter sandwich and hung around the camper a little longer than I wanted. I was waiting for my friend who owed me money. He did not show so I thought I might as well fish some more. I managed to catch half dozen meaty cutthroats that were cruising the shore line. I released them all. I kept an ear out for the old GMC however I was the only one at the lake and it was deadening silent.
That night I finished off the last peanut butter and bread and still felt a little hungry. I still had coffee so not all was lost. Surely his old pickup broke down and he would drag in late in the night. He had always shown up for these outings before.
The next day I woke up and made coffee but the coffee did not fix that gut hungry feeling I had. I fished again but grew weak and headed back to the camper and slept most of the afternoon. I wondered what I was going to do if he did not show…I did not have enough money for gas to get back to Denver. It was not looking good. It is at these times in life you wished you had the companionship of a good old dog.
Late that evening he showed up looking like death worn over. He was one sad looking dude. I was one sad looking guy not to mention a hungry one when he handed me the rod I had made him. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a ten dollar bill and sheepishly handed it to me. I said, “You got any food?” With a stoic expression on his face he said nope and mentioned he had fed what he had to his dog Charlie. He told me about his girl friend taking the $500 dollars he had saved to pay me with. Seemed she had left with a good friend of his. I made a pot of coffee and we talked late into the night and played cribbage.
The next morning he took off, we shook hands and I wished him luck and told him to blow off the girl friend and not to go looking for the both of them. My friend is the type of mild mannered guy that might just pull out his 44 and blow the both of them away. Anyhow he left and I finished my cup of coffee while listening to the rumble of his truck as he disappeared down the dirt road that led up to the truck. I wondered who was in the worst predicament he or I.
I grabbed up my fly rod, headed to the lake and hooked into another nice cutthroat. Out of reflex I released him and watched him sink into the deep water out of sight. About that time I got one of those hunger pains that bend you right over. When I straightened back up I saw a nice rise about thirty feet off shore so I cast my fly out to the spot. I was into a heavy fish and he fought very hard. It was during that fight that I realized I wanted to catch this fish because I was hungry. In fact I even felt a bit guilty when I broke his neck and carried him back to the camper. It had been a long time sense I had killed an animal for food.
I cooked him in some butter and sure was glad that I had been able to catch him. This served as a reality check. After all catching and releasing trout one hundred percent of the time had removed a portion of the truth, the truth being that fishing is a blood sport. In some way catching and releasing a trout is a bit perverted but becomes a necessary behavior if you want to conserve the trout population especially in a small stream. I admit it actually feels good to watch a trout wiggle away into the dark water….odds are he will live another day. It becomes all most a religion to many fly fishermen to practice catch and release. They often look down upon the fisherman who keeps a trout. Most of them are snobs that probably have never been hungry.
However, I remember that time in my life when I was truly hungry and almost without the means to survive. I never will forget those trout that I ate for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Today when I see another fisherman with a few trout on a stringer it pains me for a second then I think to myself, he might be broke, just lost his job, living out of his truck and the best thing that God has to offer him at that point in his life is a few fish that will keep alive for another day with hope that things will improve over time. Without hope what else is there?
Photo by Tina Huffman
“Where it begins I can’t begin to know it”
Two Stories About Bamboo Fly Rods
By
Bamboo Bill
Bamboo rod makers know well where a rod begins. It starts somewhere in his mind and then the physical manifestation begins when his fingers touch one of his simple hand tools. He touches this bamboo thousands of times before it is tuned into a fly rod. Of course he takes notes and records information about the rod. I suppose the most intimate nuances are lost in his memory. When I die there is information about my rods that will dissolve into chaos with me. I plan it that way…because there is something about collectors of bamboo rods that I simply dislike. What it is I do not know.
I have made a fair number of rods over the past ten to twelve years. Each rod I have made, I wished was mine. So it is safe to say that these rods are like children to me. I often wonder if the owners take care of them and value them beyond the money they paid me for the rod I crafted for them. I suspect many of them don’t.
Last summer I got two phone calls from Pawn shops. One shop was down in Denver and the other in Idaho. Each call was from the owner of the shop and they wanted to know how much the rod was worth. All I could tell them is how much it would cost them to have me make them a rod. The funny thing is this. Every time I get one of those open ended questions, I think of a rod collector in Denver who owns over 500 cane rods. He would approach me now and then and say, “Bill I want you to make a rod for me”…I would say “are you going to fish it?” he would say, “Probably not, as you know I want to own one rod from every Colorado rod maker”….I would say
“Nope their for fishing”.
I can’t stand Pawn shops because I get a strange felling inside of them. I know lots of people fall on hard times and that’s why their plunder is in there. But, a hand crafted fly rod in a Pawn shop is a pretty sad statement about the realities of life. One I would prefer not to think about.
Here are the two stories, each one different and yet the sad hard realities of life are present in each one. Often some of the best of times are when we are out on the water with our favorite fishing rod.
Idaho:
The owner of the little 6’6” Lost Creek had his wife leave him for a friend. So he shows up at the Pawn shop with everything he owns and pawns the stuff. He spent a couple of hours talking to the owner about how sad he was and then left the shop with the idea that he would come back and renown his stuff again. Only he never came back. The Pawn shop owner calls me and tells me this story. It hurts because I know that this man and he was a good friend of mine, he had a heart of gold. I ask the owner if the man had brought in his Guitar and sure enough he had. I told the pawn shop owner that he was a good song writer and had even spent some time trying to make it in Nashville but left Mecca because of some corruption he had run into.
With the added information about this man the Pawn shop owner told me he would keep the Bamboo rod for himself and stow the wooden guitar away and if my friend ever showed back up he would give him the rod and guitar back. At least I felt better ecause I knew the little rod had found a home. If you go up on my web site www.bamboobillrods.com it is the rod where the moving line moves across the rod.
Denver:
A man had me make him a rod and introduced his son to me. His son was attempting to make a living as a fishing guide. Out of pure kindness I made the son a rod and gave it to him as a gift from my heart. Again it was the 6’6” Lost Creek model….I refer to it as a Guides Choice because it only has one tip and my standard models have two tips.
The owner of the Pawn Shop wanted to know the same information. I told him the same thing I told the Idaho pawn shop owner. I have no information on the young man I gave this rod to, but perhaps his life made some hard turns and his rod ended up as just another material object that was reduced to “Frog green dollars” as the Late Harry Middleton liked to define money. (I have a hand crafted letter from the young man thanking me from the bottom of his heart for the rod.)
I was left with a bad feeling. So I e mailed a friend of mine that the rod was up on E bay and he ended up buying it. I have the little rod in my possession and have revarnished it leaving the kids name on it. The new owner wanted the kids name left on it.
The little rod was fished hard and abused in my opinion but it came back to daddy and daddy has the rod looking good once again. I have decided not to give anymore rods away as gifts. People simply don’t respect what they don’t pay for. Even some of my owners don’t take care of my rods….but I can’t follow them around making sure they treat them right.
I just never know where one of my bamboo rods will end up let alone knew what fabled waters it has fished. It is probably just as well I don’t know.
This one is for : Bruce

Those Little Creeks
By
Bamboo Bill
I love those little creeks with wild trout in them. You may ask what does he mean by small creek. That’s a fair enough question. I’m talking about a creek that you might be able to jump over; a pine tree might fall across it and you use it for a bridge to make the other side if you fall in…you won’t drown. So a little creek might be pretty small or have a little size to it. Kind of like looking at a lady that weighs 118lbs in a short black skirt that has really nice legs.
There is a little creek close to my house and you have to walk into it. I never run into other fly fishermen, only yuppies ridding their mountain bikes. They mostly say hello when they pass me and I respond likewise trying to maintain that fresh western perspective that I enjoyed over 30 years ago when I came to Colorado. The bikers don’t linger, they are in a hurry to cover ground, cover distance. Not I, I walk a normal clip for at least an hour before I decide to fish. I often stop to look at a wild rose, partake in the eating of a few wild berries or watch a deer drink from the creek and then saunter off into the dark shadows of the pine forest.
I like the idea that if I don’t get that first cast right on the money every trout in that section of the stream will run up and down telling every other trout around there that there is fisherman near by, better beware dudes. You may ask how big the fish are. Well…., and I’m smiling right now…”big enough”. A 12 inch wild trout strikes hard and when he knows he is caught by that stupid little bug he was trying to eat fights with no compromise. He may jump out of the water and will appear during those brief moments in flight, while hanging in the air, 40 percent larger than he really is. This is a perfect example of relativity. With the small creek as a frame of reference he appears bigger than he really is.
Anyway, many of these creek trout are beautiful beyond words. After you release them, there is a good whole sum feeling one gets deep inside your chest. It comes from knowing that this little fish might live through the cold winter months and be bigger next year. You know deep inside the odds are against him but none the less you be back next year hoping to catch him again. It is the type of fishing spot you don’t talk about, you keep it tight.
The walk back to the truck is always a pleasure; there is a nice tired feeling from my back down through my legs. Nothing more nothing less. Where there are some people that would say I wasted a good God given day…I know otherwise…small trout on a little creek can be just what a fisherman needs to rub up against in order to clear his mind and put a chuckle into his laugh and spring in his walk.
This ones for my friends who need the mountains, cold mountain streams
and wild trout as much as I do.

Bacon and Eggs and back to Mr. Reliable
By
Bamboo Bill
When it comes to morning time around a camp site there are two things that I really love. One is the smell of bacon and eggs cooking in the skillet. The other is coffee brewing. These two main stays to the camping experience will always be right out front so to speak when campers think back on their mornings around the camp fire..
When I first started fly fishing the Flat Tops and back packing into Little Trappers Lake, I had the great success with a simple elk hair caddis fly. When the sun is setting and is casting a redish - golden glow upon the water the golden caddis fly simply shines like a diamond in the rough. It is lovely beyond understanding.
I enjoy simply working the fly slowly, some times twitching it and also letting it sit still. Trout think it is a caddis or sledge and slash at it which really brings total excitement to the angler. The take is aggressive almost startling and often the trout will take line off the reel when he runs. When I'm fishing, my Hardy Reel it really sings a sweet tune.
I have been fishing soft hackle wet flies pretty steady the past five years or so and therefore kind of forgot about this fly and how much fun it is to fish with. Pine Lake has been fishing pretty slow the past two weeks. Tina and I went fishing yesterday evening and had the lake to our selves a plus when the fishing is slow. I tied up some elk hair caddis patterns like the one you see in the picture and we took them along. Tina got a strike on her first cast and I had two trout on within the first 30 minutes.
The night brought back lots of memories of the time in my life when I fished this fly so often while up in the Flat Tops. Those were the days I was a starving trout bum and would camp out 30 days straight while in those mountains that I so love. Each fly I tied seemed to bring back a nice memory. Memories are all we have in the end. My bank of fishing memories is filled to the brim.
Tina and I will be fishing these caddis flies a lot this summer simply because they are so much fun. Nothing like coming back to Mr. Reliable

Days with Grand Father
The Arrival
By
Bamboo Bill
It was a hot Florida day and I being the ripe old age of 8 was waiting for the teacher to call on me to read my essay about my favorite person. All the other kids talked about their grand parents or their parents and what they had to say was becoming redundant. Seemed like they all lived some where along the Eastern part of the country, where reality was some where between the mosquito and the soft shell crab. And humid to boot. I was bored and as I began rereading to myself my own little essay the sounds of the classroom became fainter and fainter until I was no longer there.
It was a summer day deep into August and my ears had not popped as of yet. But I didn’t care one bit. The mountain air smelled fresh, redolent with Spruce trees. A few small goose bumps began to pop up on my tan but skinny arms. There was an excitement that was creeping slowly up my spine. Grandma was driving her green Jeep and she had driven out to the airport, “almost to Kansas” as she put it, to pick me up. We talked as she drove... But no matter what subject she brought up to talk to me about I really could only think of one thing.
We reached the little town called Pine Junction and grandma pulled her Jeep into the left lane, we came to a stop light that moved slightly in the cool mountain breeze. The light turned green and off we went, down Pine Valley road. Pine valley road was my favorite road of all time. It twisted and curved like a snake and dropped fast in elevation. I could feel my ears pop and a funny little quiver occurred in my stomach. As we came around a turn, there in the middle of the road were three deer and grandma slowed to a stopped while they slowly crossed the road and then ran up the side of the mountain. They looked back toward us as we continued to drive on down into the valley. The wildness of the mountains touched me deeper each time I came out to visit my Grand Parents.
I loved going to Grandpa and grandmas house in Colorado. To me it was a different reality all together different than what I was used to in Florida. I loved where I lived but these summer vacations out West were special. As we dropped into the valley my thoughts went to trout fishing and hiking the mountain trails with my Grand father.
When we entered the little rustic village of Pine, I kept a steely eye out for 5th street because I knew that it would take us up to grandpas house. It was a little house that was first built in 1886. I liked the little wood stove in the kitchen and often imagined grandpa and grandma playing cribbage by the wood burner during a snow storm. I could see the camper on the truck in the front yard and there he was, sitting in his canvas lawn chair with old Shadow the family dog laying beside his feet. He had on his green fishing hat and was dressed in Blue jeans and had on leather hiking boots. His mustache was the shape of a horse shoe, white as could be. He had that Western look, that cowboy look and I loved it. It was a pleasant difference from the way we all dressed in Florida, shorts, t shirts and tennis shoes. We all looked alike but grandpa looked like himself. His shirt always had two big pockets and most of the time they were used to house fly boxes that contained artificial flies he used to catch trout with.
He got up slowly and Shadow followed suite standing as well. They came over to the jeep to meet me. Shadows tail wagging out of excitement to see me. He always extended his hand and said “Howdy partner good to see another trout fisherman”. It was the same greeting that I remember him always using. Then he would pick me up and hold me over his head examing how big I had gotten. I could feel the strength in his hands. Grandma said that came from making those bamboo fishing rods. But I knew his strength came from some other place, some place deep inside of him.
That night we all took a walk along the North Fork, grand dad’s favorite trout stream. He said, it wasn’t much of a trout a stream to write home about but I know he loved it just the same. He always said “a man has to I plant his soul right in the middle of the land he loved.” I got to hold onto Shadows leash as the three of us walked along the trail that the old narrow gage train used to travel back in the 1880s. It was short walk but one that I always looked forward to. My legs got stretched during the walk and most of all I got to look at the trout stream. It held a kind of magic that at 8 years of age I could not fully describe even to myself, let alone to my classmates or even my parents. From the day that I felt that first tug on my line as a trout took my fly and then was off, I knew my life had changed. I stirred off into the distance somewhere before time itself. I had felt my first trout and my life was changed inexorably forever.
When we got home we set up the camper for a good nights sleep. Grandpa and I would be camping out in it for the week while I was staying with them. I looked forward to the evenings in the camper. Gramps would always read a book to me. They did not watch TV…he called it a Boob Tube and told me it would soften a good mind. "Better to have hobbies, interest that a boy could sink his teeth into" is what he told me. This summer he would teach me to tie my own flies.
Now and then a mountain lion would come down into the village after the deer that came into the area at night fall and grandpa would wake me up. We would lie there together listening to the drama occurring only yards from our camper. It was exciting beyond words. I could hear my own heart beating , I was alive and felt it. Life was good at 8 years of age. After all, with the sound of The North Fork tumbling down though the valley and the cool mountain air flowing though the camper how could it not be .